So I’m kicking this re-launch off with my most favorite and personal subjects.
Becoming a mother and wife.
Getting too personal has never been my cup of tea but I feel this is necessary for my readers to understand me better. Beginning this new chapter in my life has been an emotional journey.All in all, a life-changing one. Shall we begin?
So, we’ve all been there. In our adolescent years have thought, “Oh no! I will never get married or have kids!” and now here you are.. Having a Netflix and chill date night in with your significant other. Looking up the best bottles and play gyms for your little one. Well, you’re not alone. And maybe these changes were what you needed.
That’s exactly my story.
I was once a wild child, some would say. I was never committed to anything 100 percent. I didn’t trust anyone. I would shrug at the thought of my career. And quite honestly, I just looked forward to the next fun thing.
Getting married is obviously a huge commitment. But that didn’t scare me at all. What scared me was the domestication. I couldn’t just go do what ever I wanted to anymore. I had someone who worried about me and cared for my well-being. At the end of the day, straightening up came easy for the person I love most.
When I found out I was pregnant, my first words were, “oh $*@!”. My husband just got out of the military. The plan was to try in a couple more years. You know the Outkast lyric, “you can plan a pretty picnic but you can’t predict the weather.” Well, I couldn’t agree more. We felt so out of place in our life to become responsible for a small human being.
However, that all changed by the end of 9 months. As soon as they rose my baby girl under that spotlight. I never felt so committed and determined in my life to be the best me. An overwhelming feeling of love and being the best human possible for her was enticing. She was everything perfect (total mom thing to say). I couldn’t be anymore happier and excited to take my baby home and begin the journey of parenthood with my life partner.
Then my living chapter began..
What marriage has taught me.
Love is truly patient.
Accepting another person as they are can come with its challenges. I learned how to become patient if everything was not as perfect as I wanted. I learned to be patient through our struggles. I learned that having patience with eachother is a great foundation for prosperity. Then learning it all over again when we had a baby.
When my husband was in the military he would leave for deployment and underways almost every month. We lived that lifestyle for two years. Letting time run its course required a lot of patience. Especially when we had plans that would be pushed back due to his schedule. Or when I had problems at home and the only way of contact was through email and an occasional phone call. We learned that time was valuable and having patience was the only way to get us through.
Love has no limits.
What motherhood has taught me.
Love is kind.
I don’t think you’ve felt true love till you’ve held your child in your arms for the first time. I have never been so gentle in my life till my daughter was born. Looking at her makes me feel at peace and at home.
I have never been a morning person. Always cranky when I woke up, didn’t matter the time of day. And if I didn’t get enough sleep, forget it. I was a monster all day. Having a baby changed all of the that. When I had to wake up every two hours, I never got angry. Her innocence softened me and I didn’t mind catering to her needs. Sure I was sleep deprived, but I knew there would be a day where I’d get to sleep again. My baby still wakes up every day 7-7:30 am but waking up to her smiles and kind eyes makes everything worth it.
Love is overall selfless.
I give my all to my family because I want to. I love them so much I want them to have the best of me. That’s my goal in life.
“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. . .”-1 Corinthians 13:4-8